Tuesday, 29 January 2008

Parallels of Struggle

I was waiting on the platform at Dadar to get onto a local, when it struck me how similar it is to living and surviving in Mumbai. Strangely, none of stations where the local train runs witnesses that level of a fight as in Dadar station.

The crowd was electric in communication. We could sense that the train was going to rush in even before we even saw the train. The train was still a blur when these guys ran and merged to become a brief blur themselves as they flung and miraculously attached themselves onto the train. The throng starts fighting like a swarm of blind bees trying to get into the hive. There is plenty of space but there is a stampede as you feel and become part of the woosh of flowing through the bottle neck of the gate. We are in. A pause as everyone savours the victory on a still stationary train. Looking at the platform I see a face who just gave up expecting the next train to be a wee bit more emptier. That's when the similarity seeped into me like warm honey on a edge cindered toast of experience.

Everyone who comes, lives, or aspires in Mumbai gets somewhere. Some fight so hard that they get a eyelash-blink's worth of savage satisfaction. These are the blurs that jump onto a speeding train risking life, limb, and perhaps a great deal more. The great leveler of a city - Mumbai soon scythes them into the sea of 'others' as the rest get on the train. I'm sure the moment of triumph is worth it all. Else no one would do all that. Every three minutes. On every platform. As a train zips through like through the innards of a metronome.

The common denominator like me fights to get through the gate. We all reach where we want. In careers, hopes, and aspirations... And what else not. All in good time.

It's not like the one waiting for the next chance on the platform is left behind. He/she too gets there. Perhaps. By then, however, those who take the tide of opportunity have swept so far ahead, it is quite impossible to catch up. These unreachble specs will have reached the Borivali equivalents in what they seek from the city by the time the bystander takes the plunge.

Wednesday, 23 May 2007

It just rained...

A stream of people crowded around the open window. Watching the yellow earth moving monsters getting drenched and yet hammering away. A sudden thought struck me. Why stay behind the glass windows and peer out like some convict enviously looking at freedom from within. So I went out and up and got drenched.

Brilliant.

Thursday, 17 May 2007

...Those little bright spots...

Imagine a void. There is no light.

Like superman, the senses are receiving inputs like crazy from all around...

The moment you are awake the little blips like come streaming like a blast of sand grains and hit on the surface of your sensory being. The hits register like phosphorescence. Little white twinkling stars on the black void space of your being at that moment. This is a slice in your time.

Slice. Slice. Slice.      Slice. Slice. Slice. Slice.       Slice. Slice….

So many abysmally small slices in time. The slices stack up and become a wave of dominoes toppling. The plings, the hits, the sand blast, the waves which wash over you like your face in a dust storm, like the droplets of rain when you rush through an onrushing drizzle of rain. You zoom outwards and soon the white plings look like the star field simulation screen saver.  The space of time and the stars of sensory plings move away rapidly from you. The ride is on. The zwoosh as you helplessly plummet down the roller coaster, the water slide, the avalanche, the tsunami…

As the experiences wash over you, few glow and scintillate brilliant in the void. Like a when a flash bulb goes phat in a cartoon movie and all the subjects in the photograph freeze for the moment and are indelibly registered as a photograph. A memory? A nothing that dies like an ember and leaves the glow and the warmth behind? A taste? A tingle? A … ?

Ill collect some of the photographs and throw them at the sticky board of this page, this space, this blog, this scribble-do… The blutack of this cyber space will grab it fast.

 Soon the photos will also become a part that you see all the time and so dont see any more. To see is to register. Someday when the tempo dies and the roller coaster slows down a bit, Ill perhaps notice these wistfully like the dusty memories on the make shift thermocol soft board wanna be and smile wistfully. Ill reach out and gently wipe the memories with sepia at the edges --- and a smile will lift the corners of my mouth. The corners of the eyes will feel a bit moist.

... in the beginning

I thought of doing this moments before I wrenched the throttle at the Sancheti hospital crossing a couple of days back.

I'm surprised I even sustained the urge...